“Big deal”
it feels like a compulsion
oh I can’t control it
replaying small moments in my head
the way you answered the phone
you choked up when you felt known
the way you kissed me so slow like you meant it
and I’ve been broken before
found a way to move forward
but I won’t this time
You were a big deal
ya my sister lost money on you
and it’s not a big deal
but I don’t wanna play if I’m gonna lose
cause I won’t get over this
heartbreak apocolypse
so sick I can’t take it
I don’t mean to make it
a big deal
but you were
you waved to me from the deep end
don’t be scared of big feelings
so in love now I’m sinking, all alone
and it’s embarrassing how much
I’m still talking about us
don’t know why I doubted
that you were a big deal
ya my sister lost money on you
and it’s not a big deal
but I don’t wanna play if I’m gonna lose
cause I won’t get over this
heartbreak apocolypse
so sick I can’t take it
I don’t mean to make it
a big deal
but you were
you know I could downplay any pain
baby I could take a broken bone and fix it with a bandaid
and you know how much I hate making waves
but I need you to know
that you were a big deal
ya my sister lost money on you
and it was a big deal
and I don’t wanna play if I’m gonna lose
cause I won’t get over this
heartbreak apocolypse
so sick I can’t take it
I don’t mean to make it
a big deal
but you were